Matthew 6:24

The question to ask myself is " is what I'm devoting my time and resources to something that can in return give me life?"

For me the answer is no. I've spent so much time attempting to set up this false sense of security that everything is ok because we have "fill in the blank" and most of the time I fill the blank with money. Im so obsessed with having a certain amount of money and stuff because in some twisted way I believe that when I reach a certain amount then we're secure from tragedy or disaster. I've grown up not trusting the fact that God would provide for my family because my view of provision was so distorted. I have for so long held the belief that if I had financial hardships then God wasn't providing for me. When if I took a bigger picture look at it, he's been keeping us floating for so long even though I haven't been faithful to him with the things he has entrusted me to be a good steward of. The message I've been getting from God very clearly is humility. I need to be more humble, because there isn't anything that I have, He hasn't given to me above and far beyond what I deserve, because the truth is based on my faithfulness to him, I deserve nothing, and I've been given so much. Sure I've worked hard to accomplish things, but without God I wouldn't have the ability to do any of those things. I have an amazing life, and it's about time I start realizing it and give thanks to the one who has given it to me. With the start of this Dave Ramsey study and Toby's new series 'Gravity' I'm in for a good bit of self examination, WHICH I HATE, because it usually means having to admit that I'm the problem and I can't blame it on anyone else. But, I can't change the past and I can't predict the future, so my goal is to live right now for Him and be obedient to the call He has put on my life. It won't be easy and I'll stumble before I get it right, but at least now I'm out there running towards the goal; literally and figuratively.

It's been a while

So it's been quite some time since I last posted. I know I said I was going to post everyday, but the best laid plans of mice and men... So here goes my first blog in quite a while.

Since we last spoke I completed my first 5k, and have begun training for my next race. The 5k was tough being my first race, it was hotter than expected and I made the rookie mistake of training only on flat terrain and the race course was much hillier than I anticipated. But, all in all it was a great experience; it was a goal I set and accomplished it. I was really surprised at how welcoming the community of racers was to an obvious beginner. Everyone was very encouraging before, during, and after the race. In those moments of the race where I felt like quitting someone would be there to give me a 'hey good job man, keep going!' I really loved the feeling after the race and was able to look back and say 'I did that' and I want to do it again. I took a week off from training; worst thing ever, because that week turned into 2 and getting back to my endurance pre-race is taking me forever. But today I got in a solid two miles that was pretty comfortable. My new goal is to Run the Rock with a marathon team. So if you're interested I've still got 3 spots left on the team. I've found that where I am with my running life I have to have goals in order to stay motivated, so now that is my ultimate motivation. I'm also planning on running at least one 5k in between now and then. So that's where I'm at with my fitness goals. I'm also down a total of 31 pounds since I started so that's pretty exciting and even in those days when I feel like I've failed by eating the wrong thing or skipping a workout I can know I'm still traveling down the road of success and accomplishment.

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